The Woman of my Dreams

i truly believe that i must be one of the luckiest men alive. That might sound strange coming from a man whose wife has sex with other men instead of him, but if you understand cuckolds and the Women they love, you probably aren't surprised.

Let me explain...

i met the Woman of my Dreams nine years ago this summer and my life was forever changed...for the better. She is a wonderful Woman - a fantastic mother, a highly successful professional, and a loving partner. She is kind, generous, smart, and strong and She carries Herself with class and confidence. i love Her more with each day that passes and i owe Her a debt of gratitude for all that She does for me.

Of course, this is a blog about my life as Her cuckold, so it probably goes without saying that She can also be a cold, hard bitch and i lover Her that, too.

i can honestly say that i have never met a Woman with as much raw sex appeal as Mistress K. She has an undeniably powerful sexuality that draws me to Her like a moth to a flame. In Her late 40s, She turns heads of men young and old with Her 5'3" frame, 36 DD chest, and Her come hither look. She has a sexual aura about Her and i remember that unmistakeable feeling of arousal i felt in those first moments that i met Her. And that feeling of desire has been with me ever since.

We actually met online nine years ago this summer for the purposes of some casual play, and the first night we got together things just clicked. We went for dinner and some drinks before going back to Her place, where i ended up staying the night. We both enjoyed our time together so much that She invited me back the very next evening, and again i spent the night in bed with Her. It was the next morning that She told me that after Her previous marriage and divorce that She could never be "a one man kind of woman" again and that She no longer believed in monogamy for Herself. i told Her that i respected and supported whatever lifestyle worked for Her, and admitted that i felt much the same way.

After that first weekend, we continued to see each other regularly and our relationship began taking shape. It was an open relationship of sorts, but i never took advantage of the freedom i had while She continued to see several other men She had been "dating" when we first met. At the same time, the dynamic between us in our own relationship was becoming clear. She is naturally dominant but had never had an opportunity to demonstrate Her dominance in a relationship before. On the flip side, i am very submissive and did have experience submitting to a strong Woman in the past. The D/s dynamic between us was palpable and more and more all of our interactions began to reflect Her dominance over me and my subservience to Her. About four months into our relationship, i asked Her if She would like to take full control of our relationship and of me, and i asked for Her permission to submit to Her completely. She wanted to think about it, but told me the very next day that She would like me to become Her servant, but only on Her terms, of course. It wouldn't be like one of my many kinky Femdom fantasies...it would be REAL. At the same time, i also humbly suggested to Her that She should feel free to continue seeing other men and that She could make a cuckold of me if She wished. To that She immediately agreed and said that it would absolutely have to be that way. i told Her right there and then that i would follow Her lead, follow Her rules, and become whatever She wanted. Since that day i have privately been Her servant and cuckold. We are partners in life, but we are NOT equal partners by any means. And while we are not officially married, we love each other very much and for all intents and purposes we are Wife and husband.

Of course, our private life is not all Femdom and kinky sex. It's actually rather vanilla most of the time. Together, we lead a pretty normal life with a nice little family (She has a teenager from Her previous marriage), and busy lives like most people. But underneath it all, our relationship is purely Female-led. She is in control and completely dominant over me, and i serve Her in every way i can. She makes the rules and calls the shots, while i put Her on a pedestal and do all that i can to make Her happy. i am the one who does the household chores, i run the mundane errands, and i tend to Her personal needs like a servant should. She is far more successful than i am professionally, and She is the main breadwinner by far. my paycheque is directly deposited into Her account and i receive only a small bi-weekly allowance. All property is in Her name...the car, the house, everything. i have no credit cards and i am not permitted to spend any money without Her prior approval. She relies on my input, but Her word is final and She makes all of the decisions. She truly is the Head of the Household. But it's not like She's a Dominatrix and i'm a slave all the time...it's more like She is the CEO and i am Her employee.

Having said all of that, it does get pretty kinky and nasty around here at times. We're both very sexual people and unabashed perverts, and we decided long ago never to deny our true natures and to always pursue our sexual appetites, no matter how kinky they might seem. In keeping with this philosophy, we have two drawers in my dresser full of sex toys and BDSM implements. i will tell you more in subsequent posts about the kinds of things that go on here, but i am sure that those of you familiar with Femdom and cuckolding can imagine how it is. Everything we do is informed by our Female-led dynamic and we have our own wonderful brand of intimacy. Our sexual play is often very intense and i know that we're very, very close because of the kinks that we share and the way that we have woven sex into our relationship.

Despite having a very intimate sex life together, one thing that we do not do anymore is fuck.

Earlier this year, on Valentine's Day of all days, Mistress K decided to finally cut me off once and for all. It was inevitable. Over the past few years we had not fucked very often, and when we did it was usually as an afterthought following a session in which i had brought Her to a number of orgasms using a combination of my mouth and/or a variety of vibrators and dildos She prefers. Only after She was satisfied would She offer me the opportunity to fuck Her. Often She would just spread Her legs and tell me i to go ahead and put my hard little penis inside Her...She would get nothing out of it and was usually quite indifferent to me by that point. And i never lasted more than about 45 seconds (if that)...i just couldn't hold it back. Often in those few seconds that i was pretending to be a real man and trying to fuck my Wife, She would tell me that i was useless in bed and that i had never been able to properly satisfy Her. She would mock and insult me and tell me that She shouldn't have to tolerate sex with a loser whose instincts are to grovel and to lick up the leavings of another man, rather than fuck his own wife and come inside Her himself. So yeah...it's not like we fucked like regular people. Not really. And that part of our sex life was bound to end eventually. For my part, and i'll be 100% honest, i am fat, bald, and poorly endowed. So why would an attractive, sexy Woman like Mistress K have to put up with having sex with a man like that? The answer...She shouldn't have to and doesn't anymore. Besides, those physical characteristics combined with my submissive nature make me a natural cuckold and She enjoys taking full advantage of that fact and arranging our life together to better suit Her needs. 

As you probably know, we cuckolds are complicated types often with strong masochistic streaks and i know that to be true for me, at least psychologically. And as i mentioned, i am quite poorly endowed (just 4.75" when fully erect) and uncut. Once we had established our cuckolding lifestyle in the early days of our relationship, Mistress K was honest with me and told me that i'm too small for Her and that She actually thinks i have a rather ugly little penis. You'd think that would crush a man's arousal (and it would for most) but for me the humiliation was incredibly exciting. So, when She derides me for having such a wretched little dick, and for being sexually inadequate, and when She compares me to a better man and tells me that She prefers to be with him instead of me, i respond as a masochist would - it excites me beyond belief and i crave that psychological torment. And Mistress K certainly knows how to push my buttons.

Like i said above, She is incredibly sexual (and 100% bisexual) and extremely adventurous. Of course, i see Her as an unbelievably vibrant, insatiable Woman who deserves to rule over me and i admire Her and hold Her in the highest esteem possible. i know how lucky i am just to be with Her. And even though i have a diminished role in Her sex life, i strive to make up for that in all the other parts of our relationship and in our life together. Truly, i know that neither of us would have it any other way.

So, there you have it - Mistress K is the Woman of my dreams. She fills my heart with love and lust and She is the One who has delivered me into my proper place in life. For that and many other reasons, i owe Her a debt of gratitude that i look forward to repaying for the rest of my life.

i truly believe that i am one of the luckiest men alive.